Nobody can tell.
But she’s in so much pain.
Nobody sees past her smile, real as it is
Though all they think of is themselves anyway.
She tries so hard to be strong,
But sometimes she breaks down.
She cries with a pain far too removed from herself,
Waiting for the moment when she can again be strong.
This pain she hides is far too bad
for someone as young as she
she hides it well, and for this she’s glad
this ability to cover up what no one seems to see.
Really, it’s her own fault
there’s something in her that doesn’t want to be weak
They’ve abused her for being different
and she’s afraid they’ll dislike her pain
and she’ll have to go back to being angry again.
She’ll have to go back to being alone
with nobody who truly cares
Can she really not see? All this time
it’s like she can’t see all their jealous stares
She thinks they hated her so
she thinks she was alone
what she doesn’t see can hurt her
for she thinks it’s upset she’s sown…
She doesn’t want to admit to anyone
removed from those she trusts with everything
and unless their eyes show true care and true worth
she’ll never tell, never. She’ll hide it forever