Ah, I cannot sleep because the Fates have their eye
On me

The end of my string is looming, the scissors whine closer
I know I will not survive
Just please let me sleep through the night


The angry burn will not release me
I try to sleep but the wind in my chest is freezing
My eyelids are heavy but the memories are heavier
I cannot let go of the past and the future


I’ve fought a thousand battles trying to find you, searching for some infinite desire that would anchor me to another

I found nothing and no one

Only dust. 

Just shadows full of twinkling promise,
Remnants of love; so I kept looking
And I discovered strength instead of companionship. 

Dignity instead of desire. 

in place of longing. 
And I am free of binding chains; now I search languidly, with expectation


Of desperation.