Nods and Nos

No, it’s fine, don’t let him see you cry

The tears have no meaning but the love-light in your eyes

Blame it on the wind blowing dust into your gaze

Don’t let him know his eyes invade your waking nights and dreaming days

Not anger

Not sorrow

Not shock

Absolutely nothing

old friend

Starting over has never

Felt this familiar, comforting

Perfect

I get it, now

The key to this whole thing

Is just trusting You.

So…

That is what I’ll do.

STAY

Here is where the uncertainty unfolds

The fear surrounds and threatens now

But I will lift my voice above the roar

I will scream your praise in the lashing storm

There is no flood that can sweep your love away

My flesh may fail but my God, YOU REMAIN.

Emptiness

find the cold hollow inside. Hang on. Sink your claws in strong. Dull the pain and r u n

rollercoaster

yeah, it’s lows like dipping beneath the wings of submarines

as they brush the valleys of the sea

but the highs are so windy, so brightly sharp over the city

i will take the screaming-pain if

it means i sometimes feel this strongly.

feast

Let spill the sizzling hilt of sword

that dams your flooding blood with steel

the lapping blade, its greedy stains

which bring the coping rain.

 

My vision blurs, I sink and swirl

and every cell within.

my poison will never win

I vomit ink to cure the meat

of pages of empty sin.

 

Make me a steak of refusal-fate

and I’ll spit in my hand and grin.

I’ll slay whatever filthy hound

would cut my bile with gin.

 

I don’t know who I am when all these wordlets nip my skin

Indecisive

What is this uncertainty

Magnanimous devilry?

My sneering-heart decides.

I de-rail love and time.

I hate this trembling weeping mess

This weakness, static-filled lioness

Please cut the icicles from my cheeks

Grate them down to bone and bleed

Help me stop being me