Cut me down
Dig up these roots
Strip the ivy away
Let the sunlight into my core
Rip the bark off every branch
Gut me, drain me, peel off all my flesh
Til sap and blood rain down as flame.
End the poison settled in my crown
Tear out my thorny heart, embrace it as it screams
Hold together everything as you pull me all apart
Break up every clot, shatter every knot
I beg you to destroy anything you are not
What fragile peace accompanies
I’ll leave and brick up the glass
How sickly-sweet the assurance seems
Yo solo estaré, en paz.
May my weakness perfect your love
May my screams lift up your name
May my sorrow paint these stains away
And fill my blood with day.
Ignite in me your perfecting scheme
And make me more than this misery
Mismo, mismo, no puedo entender
You court and ferry illnesses although it isn’t fair
Verde, verde, me duele el corazón
I look and see similarity…
Same eyes same lies same
Woe, the unfettered heart
Sickening chemicals, clawing at me
Draining all my joy away
How can I fight? I am weary
It would be far easier to
Small bodies on a playground
Adrift in youth, secure
How many will grow to claim
The poisons named their own?
Have I always
Had Grim grinning in faded bone
Through my smile?
The day I die
Marked since my own life swam
Ignorant on the swings?
It is hard to weep in light, my
Sadness craves the night
past time when I am long alone, when skydark hits and mutes the known
I cry softly on my own.
I did not know that stones
When will this grief stop its roaming, and settle
more quietly into a home? I cannot
be like this much longer or my tears
will fill my lungs.
I’m drowning from above, and no one
Has offered me any way up
To see the sky and breathe again
To where the sea is not flooding my oxygen
And cursing my skin with its sting.
I would love to care about such trivialities
Something, but empty
The anxiety wriggles and vines.
Curling leaves that shimmer and bleed
And shower my skull in their crying.
Help me, please, my nothingness screams
I ache for a respite from the chaos investment
Nobody truly knows
You know me like no other.
Your love searches my heart
And guides it through the rubble.
I whimper weakly, wrought of nothing.
The dark delights in my lack of words.
I cannot even think before you.
Your might is astounding, Your mercy undeserved…
I think I’ve thought a single praise but nothing grazes Your worth
Elohim Shama, I want to listen as well as I’m heard.