I lose my breath for the ways we wept
Carving our chains from the sorrows we claim
I curse my hands as they build my plans
The coffin sized for me that I lovingly heed
Each step towards my death I shriek as I grin
I cannot stop mourning even as I descend
Why do we not cease all this clamor and doubt?
I know what will save me but I grieve anyhow
We built our own tomb-traps but we gild them and stay!
filling the rooms with silver decay
Floating our corpses in gold-blood and gloom
We’re certain this death will not be the last
We’ve died so many times in the past
Sometimes the greatest poetry…
Rage, silent storm;
Is the absence of any.
The quiet, heavy ladled
Only over the story..
You would tell, but refuse.
Respect me, or I will blow your memory like dust into the wind.
You do not deserve any acknowledgment from my breath.
It took a while, but I realized
You’ll never be gone. Not one ounce
Of your spirit, or joy, or love
Has vanished from my life. Not one
Of your presence
Has left my side.
I know who you were, and who you made me, and how you kept the loneliness at bay for so many
It’s accepting now
That I can never truly lose you
That will let the healing begin.
Someday I’ll see you again
We are all a dime a dozen
Count our sorrows, compare our suns
Nobody matters, not you, not I
We seek to cut the gold from our eyes
Someday home will be a place
I never want to leave.
Right now it is pain and dark and
Jarring sunlit memories
Awash in blood and flame and joy,
I need to make myself
And fill my home with you.
Cut me down
Dig up these roots
Strip the ivy away
Let the sunlight into my core
Rip the bark off every branch
Gut me, drain me, peel off all my flesh
Til sap and blood rain down as flame.
End the poison settled in my crown
Tear out my thorny heart, embrace it as it screams
Hold together everything as you pull me all apart
Break up every clot, shatter every knot
I beg you to destroy anything you are not
What fragile peace accompanies
I’ll leave and brick up the glass
How sickly-sweet the assurance seems
Yo solo estaré, en paz.