But will you move along someday
When someone else is as bright as me?
As loud, as eager, as strange and chaotic
Why stay here when others are c a l l i n g ?
One thing you did right
Was you loved my words.
You wanted to hear them
Day and night.
One thing you did wrong
Was you also loved her.
Was she on your mind
While I wrote of you?
I feel the shiver-heart so close,
Its echo rattling the prison cell
And I almost shriek for want of the feeling
But the moment passes, the tears die inside
I sink deeper into mire, unknown, unafraid
the dam inside relents, the coolness spills down my lips
my heartbeat flickers slower and the waterfalls collapse
my worry has surrendered, my stoic-flesh gives in
the tears fall.
Our hearts get sad when we wander from home
and the chains that anchor us loosen and groan
so why now that I am here and safe
I wish to roam and get lost and un-known
I want my heart to weaken and bleed
let it scream
let me go
just this rending-acid-beast
and boils my bones to stew,
letting my flesh seep through
blocking my heart from beating anew
I CAN’T FEEL anything
but the brewing
i am a fool.
i feel this illness curb my mind
i know my secrets love to hide behind each midnight-dappled eye
who am i
when my convictions die?
And cuts through all my rationality
My bones feel clipped, my heart is sick
I feel the slivers sink and dip
My heartbeat gives up, my soul is undone
I am punished by the wind
I love but I cannot give in
Take the heart, cut and dry
Let the waters flood my eyes
Fill me up with ink and blood
Show the sunlight what I’ve done.