no more LOST ONES,
no more BROKENNESS.
i am not walking the hospice halls of my heart any longer
I DESERVE A MAN WHOSE LIFE IS CHRIST
and i saw you… with joy in your eyes…
i dearly desire that light.
Nice to meet you. I think we’re meant to
take you out to eat?
the purest energy, the jitters of possibility
I hear that song and shake my head, the
glitter catching in my eyes
each sunrise taunting me with its time, I
have already decided so many things, after one glimpse
hope is dangerous, love even deadlier
caution to illness and sorrow and loneliness –
you are all on death row, I’ve realized my hope –
and it feels so sudden, but
i want to fall in love
Is it all a loss, or can we
Make beauty from the chaos?
Take shards and snarling
Breaks and aching
And make them our own ground?
Can we beat the trouble into solidity
Build our homes upon the rock
Never have to shake when storms are here and
We cannot breathe or blossom?
i see a beautiful tree, leaves
tumbling from its boughs
outstretched limbs, relief in letting go
a burden never meant to carry
she lets the breeze
borrow the load;
she lets the river
carry off her sorrow.
each crumbling memory
no longer rooted in pain
an autumn death which
brings renewal and
What kind of lightness is now set into my soul
Where a store of chaos has fallen from its hole?
I crammed in every if and dream
The nightmares singing their trancelike screams…
Now, exposed, they all flood out;
A waterfall of wasted doubt.
Why die to tame the lightning and wind?
Why not instead bind the star within
I cannot control where the air-fire strikes
But my heart? It is mine.
And it shall do as I like.
If my suffering brings peace, if my
Darkness can be a flame
Let the iron rains fall and close their chains on me
I will not dull the pain if it means showing someone the way
Let the aching stay.
I can see you all so clearly, phantoms
Flickering round the fire.
Bodies glittering in the light, laughter
Spiraling through the air.
I can feel the sweet rustic woodsmoke
Wrapping embers in my hair,
I can breathe the memories clearly
Until you’re all once again