i see a beautiful tree, leaves
tumbling from its boughs
outstretched limbs, relief in letting go
a burden never meant to carry
she lets the breeze
borrow the load;
she lets the river
carry off her sorrow.
each crumbling memory
no longer rooted in pain
an autumn death which
brings renewal and
What kind of lightness is now set into my soul
Where a store of chaos has fallen from its hole?
I crammed in every if and dream
The nightmares singing their trancelike screams…
Now, exposed, they all flood out;
A waterfall of wasted doubt.
Why die to tame the lightning and wind?
Why not instead bind the star within
I cannot control where the air-fire strikes
But my heart? It is mine.
And it shall do as I like.
If my suffering brings peace, if my
Darkness can be a flame
Let the iron rains fall and close their chains on me
I will not dull the pain if it means showing someone the way
Let the aching stay.
I can see you all so clearly, phantoms
Flickering round the fire.
Bodies glittering in the light, laughter
Spiraling through the air.
I can feel the sweet rustic woodsmoke
Wrapping embers in my hair,
I can breathe the memories clearly
Until you’re all once again
I wander through unknowns, shivering valleys and deeper lows
My dreams reflect the darkness new- but somehow light is shimmering too
I find myself awash in breath, a consolation in the land of death…
What waits beyond I do not know. A lonely hall dipping dark and low. I will not find what I expect-
But the Lion of Judah, prowling ahead.
I see you in my dreams, the ones of day and bright
I smile in my sleep
When nights are gilded with your light.
Your eyes are vast oceans
Deep slumbering old pines
My home is within that forest,
Among my evergreens.
I can feel myself
Healing, growing, and learning
It is a blessing.
Though I am not sure
What is changing within me;
Chaos is fleeing.
For the first time in
A painfully long nightmare
I can breathe freely.
There is not any
Panic blossoming within
Just a warm, slow peace.
Such slowness is rare
In my life it has been few;
I will consume it.
Steady, soft, complete
My heartbeat returns to me
Where it always was.