“You can’t miss anyone while you’re sleeping.”
I closed my eyes. That isn’t true.
I’ve spent hundreds of years searching for you.
Missing you in valleys, in dungeons, in endless time
Every single night in the dark mazes of my mind.
I can lay me down to sleep, aye, and even dream
But missing you is a longing that pervades even sleep.
no more LOST ONES,
no more BROKENNESS.
i am not walking the hospice halls of my heart any longer
I DESERVE A MAN WHOSE LIFE IS CHRIST
and i saw you… with joy in your eyes…
i dearly desire that light.
Nice to meet you. I think we’re meant to
take you out to eat?
the purest energy, the jitters of possibility
I hear that song and shake my head, the
glitter catching in my eyes
each sunrise taunting me with its time, I
have already decided so many things, after one glimpse
hope is dangerous, love even deadlier
caution to illness and sorrow and loneliness –
you are all on death row, I’ve realized my hope –
and it feels so sudden, but
i want to fall in love
When I overheard you talking, you
sounded like a stranger.
I wasn’t sure
who was speaking.
what a relief
to be free
I still love you I still love you I am desperate to let you know
But I cannot if I want what
God has told me is the way to go
I still love you and that means
tears spring to my eyes, a widowed surprise
have i misheard this whisper-flow?
my heart has freed, a bittersweet memory
and yet untainted by the past.
i did not know this aloha could last
What kind of lightness is now set into my soul
Where a store of chaos has fallen from its hole?
I crammed in every if and dream
The nightmares singing their trancelike screams…
Now, exposed, they all flood out;
A waterfall of wasted doubt.
Why die to tame the lightning and wind?
Why not instead bind the star within
I cannot control where the air-fire strikes
But my heart? It is mine.
And it shall do as I like.