Here is where the uncertainty unfolds
The fear surrounds and threatens now
But I will lift my voice above the roar
I will scream your praise in the lashing storm
There is no flood that can sweep your love away
My flesh may fail but my God, YOU REMAIN.
What is this uncertainty
My sneering-heart decides.
I de-rail love and time.
At night, alone, the fear sneaks in
The worry and defense creep up my sleeves
They corner every vein and artery,
Demanding my breath and my sanity.
I will not give in, I will not give up
Love is not wrong, or evil
Love renews and restores and heals
Love is the warrior facing this fear.
The joy radiating from your face
Gives me pause
Warmth floods in, leaving light where I was cold
I can feel the sunrays healing
Perhaps I can forgive myself now that I see
(I’m so glad to see)
i questioned all i found that night
and wondered away my worry-plight
i hesitate to feel the light
my starving heart desires.
how can i love the fire
if i hate its savage bite?
my hapless heart bows in contrition
i seek absolution from the starrer of the skies
He looks softly at me, love-light glowing
winds of time swirling like the surging sea
His throne is flawless, I cannot gaze
he calls me closer but my fear invades
how can i approach such perfection as He?
I collapse in awe of the power I see
It still feels strange some nights
To chain the door
Knowing you’re not coming home