I know there is a God.
Because I feel him
When I breathe in sunlight
When a simple dog saves human life
When someone cries out, Justice! and the world
Hears and delivers
When people die for strangers
I feel him
In the trees and sun
I see him in the lake at night when every star alights upon the water,
next to my glowing eyes
I hear him as the breeze screams past, the force of endless power… laughs
Each petal with its velvet skin that sinks in ponds of liquid wind
I touch the soul of God each time
A child laughs, or sings, or dies
My God, he lives
Melting-me drips down my ribs
Myself withers and cracks my lips
my soul-glass chips and fogs
I stare down friends and family
as my Self slides down my bones
my heartbeat liquefies and loans
itself down to my
t o e s
My heart aches for the places we left
And the secrets we kept
In the voices that whispered to be heard.
I doubt you can un-know what you’ve learned.
Kill me once, thrill my eyes
Follow the path of stolen flight
Kill me thrice, bind my sight
Never again to write.
Fear and disgust
Wretched retching, freezing, snaking
Shaking on the floor.
Naked, fearful, colored, tearful
Sick from pills and steam
Caught in between delight and death
Where wicked torment gleams.
Ah! I propagate such worthless states
I kindle hearts with eating-haste
I sip the silver lip of eyes
The gourds of flame, of fire and ice
I whirl the spinning and purloin their stares
I whistle and whip up the ferryman’s wares
I catch my breath on the current of thought
And my oil-slick heart bleeds — a lot.
Return me, wild confidence
I beckon from the wind.
Let go my fierce uncaring eyes
And their soulful fighting grin.
I rebuke you, enemy!
The lion snarls in frustration.
I claim His name in authority!
The beast shudders in rage.
begone from me in Jesus’ name!
Sharp teeth, curled lips, a growing darkness.
In the name of I Am, Jehovah-Jireh, Elohim, El Shaddai — He is known by many names — Be GONE, foul beast!
My soul is His eternally.
No matter what illness clots my bones
What blood-bad curls my breath
I will profess til painful death
The King my heart insists.