Mudbath

I try to bathe

In the shallowest of streams;

And wonder

Why I cannot

Get clean.

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black ink, dripping

covers the globe.

cold hearts, grieving..

WHY CAN’T WE LEARN? WHY CAN’T WE LOVE?

WHY ALL THE HATRED AND DEATH AND DISEASE

WHY CAN’T WE LEAVE ONE ANOTHER IN PEACE?

I have never hesitated to make future plans with you.

Never wanted to wait and see “if the time will be right,” or if we’ll still be together

I’ve never wondered

Always assumed

Always waited expectantly, joyfully

I cannot wait,” my pervading thought

Now I shiver and wish fervently

For that future.

an evergreen love

pine-shells and mud clumps, rivers and vines

I like you now and love you all of the time

silvering skies, blossoming eyes

the rivers that run through my heart seek a prize

i speak to the mountains, they chuckle and sigh

the treetops wave down at the seas with delight

feathers and roots, charred logs and sticks

my dear, i’m wholly in love with your rhetoric.

 

Foxgloves

Faux-like, foxgloves

know I am in love

many reasons, one being

the people on the screen… with their perfect, flawlessly manicured romances

Do not hold a candle

To my own.

I feel no jealousy, no longing

no loneliness, no haunting

Just quizzical – are these the same stories

that left me heart-hungry so long before?

Now I see but a shadow

of the love we have to explore.

These Hollywood bouquets are nothing 

to him and me.

make-up

i still pause every now and again, shocked

that anything should give me hesitation.

it still doesn’t quite make sense that

your unhappiness, even in the midst of my anger AT YOU,

should move me with such alarming strength.

 

never before have i been

unable to withhold reconciliation;

it was always a move of pity, never

one of love,

not like now, where my heart crumples if i cannot end the stony silence

and hold you.

There is so much energy

A wild and blinding currency

How do I see? How do I breathe?

If I could fly I would not weep.

Help me please, THEY’RE chaining me

I don’t know how to

Break

Free

IF I DON’T

SCREAM

someone will

Bleed