Whoa, what bitterness is this
Whose twisted thoughts have I trekked in?
Surely this darkness isn’t mine,
This want for aching, wasted time
Someday I’ll be solid, healed
Someday the nightmares won’t be there to steal
If the nights are silent, the days reveal
Endless screaming from the ones repealed
Some time night and day alike
Will toss their haunting-juggling storms
And all the worry and fear I despise
I still feel fake
Like I am a parade
What business do I have
Saying I’m not okay?
As healthy as I seem… My sickness can’t be seen.
My poison had no name
So WHO AM I TO CLAIM
“I can’t because I’m lame…”
To pass along the blame?
It is so hard to accept, to know
That I can ever say no…
One day soon my bones will dissolve
The tension inside will relax and resolve
I’ll breathe out some sparks and light up the dark
My hunger pangs ceasing as my rib cage departs.
Someday soon my pain will end
Each muscle releasing the screaming within
And every candle glowing in my blood
will rival the stars again.
One thing you did right
Was you loved my words.
You wanted to hear them
Day and night.
One thing you did wrong
Was you also loved her.
Was she on your mind
While I wrote of you?
My marrow mettles me
Aloft aloof of all the burning
Prickling stabbing slicing hurting
I am destined to be more.
The cracks design a fate in store.
broken bits; human beings wonder if
we’ll ever be fixed enough to seem
like heartache is not unraveling
the seams we stitch to break our bonds
funny how we tie those knots
specifically to free ourselves;
and yet the prison remains.
we are cracked and chipped like pottery
the lumpy turtle kilned in third grade;
Pork Chop the pig named by pigtails
and all the in between.
And yet more perfect still are we
than over-fired pottery;
humans were made by divine hands
so no matter how we crush ourselves
we can always be repaired.
Have you ever been so full of something
That you cannot write?
The rage or love or endless doubt
Won’t manifest inside?
Rather it encompasses
The person you once were;
And so, inflamed, you let them cage
And break your burning heart.