Lead me to a place of
Utter dependency on you;
I do not want to be this scared little girl,
Locked up, troubled by every
Memory, every ludicrous possibility.
I sneer at those forces, the unknowns swirling around
They do not own me, their reality is unfounded
I am the King’s daughter and His grace surrounds
And that’s the
End of that story.
Mismo, mismo, no puedo entender
You court and ferry illnesses although it isn’t fair
Verde, verde, me duele el corazón
I look and see similarity…
Same eyes same lies same
It is hard to weep in light, my
Sadness craves the night
past time when I am long alone, when skydark hits and mutes the known
I cry softly on my own.
I did not know that stones
When will this grief stop its roaming, and settle
more quietly into a home? I cannot
be like this much longer or my tears
will fill my lungs.
I’m drowning from above, and no one
Has offered me any way up
To see the sky and breathe again
To where the sea is not flooding my oxygen
And cursing my skin with its sting.
I would love to care about such trivialities
Pause by the door, expecting your snore
I halt in the hallway, kill the words on my lips
I call for a name that no longer exists.
Open doors are invitations
Haunting curses, lamentations
Seal the entrance, bar the wound
Make your heart a gravel tomb.
do i pass through your mind when i am gone
I AM SCREAMING THROUGH MY VEINS, EVERY CAPILLARY CRIES
let the mnemonics die i don’t want to remember
I closed my eyes and the vision revived
Of the blood and burns on my flesh
Of the death pouring out of my head
Of all the burning and breath
I’m beautiful but I’m broken
And whoever loves me must relent
Must allow it
Must look away.