Sharp stalking scissor-stress
Hot with fever, tracing my mess
The bile pushes at my lungs
The sorrow wedges itself deeper in my blood
Veins that tighten and push nausea instead of red
I feel the sickness swirling through my matter
Each cell a slice of pain and confusion
CUT ME UP AND SERVE THEM ON A PLATTER
I feel like I never said your name,
You only ever said mine.
So long we wandered around together, and
How much time did I spend
Trying to… hide?
I was a monster in love with my reflection now I will say his name and love the taste of the inflection please help me stop this sad obsession make me someone by making me no one.
There is a fear in my core, and it
Burrows, cuts, and holds
my heart in its cold, clawed grip
But I know I am Yours.
Though my confidence falls
sick, the shaking-fear stalls
It strays and diminishes
And my weakness submits
A burn that cannot be undone
The bitter taste that masks the sun
Pull back from the shadows and let the light in
Break down your walls and feel again
Through miles and miles of travel, stay
As far from comfort, love and loss
To bury the ache and shoulder my cross
I want to be breathless with loneliness
Leave me here and
Please just f o r g e t u s
help me release the fear
assist me in this shaking-step
be with me as i open up
let me feel these things, surely this
love cannot hurt me more than silence
I cannot let Others take the reigns; I cannot
Hand my heart, encaged, to be tamed
I will wall it up and keep it close and safe
no one can hurt me if no one can say my name
I don’t think I know anyone
All hearts are foreign to me
Have I ever even loved? Have I ever set someone free
Why do my heartbeats echo just to hurt the ones I need
But will you move along someday
When someone else is as bright as me?
As loud, as eager, as strange and chaotic
Why stay here when others are c a l l i n g ?
One thing you did right
Was you loved my words.
You wanted to hear them
Day and night.
One thing you did wrong
Was you also loved her.
Was she on your mind
While I wrote of you?