the deep undying echo in my heart and soul decides
just who i love, and how strongly
how low the current drags me and how acidic the teardrops fall
i look back at your emptiness and the agony is o v e r w h e l m i n g
i want to hold you and purge it all
i scream and claw at Heart
I beat upon the stars
inside, which do NOTHING AT ALL BUT HIDE
the pain i feel for whos and whys
i need to help or i will die.
We bowed our heads
i raised mine, instead
the reverance stayed. but my gaze strayed
onto your face
— you cheekily waved.
i smiled in dismay
and my heart sank.
You don’t want me anymore
You found someone more convenient. I’m happy for you and this new life you’re living
I pray it’s everything you were wanting
I watch the stupid checkered shirts that look so good on you disappear down the way
Dark hair lost in the crowd
Part of my heart goes to sleep when you leave; a pint of my blood that will never bleed.
And I want to remember
With every fiber of my stupid useless heart
That day you were around,
I was near;
You marched straight through the crowd
and wrapped your arms around me
Just arms and contact and an exclamation from me,
Asking if you were alright
Because you never hug anyone.
And I cherish that night —
when you opened up your heart to me
Without ever saying anything at all.
I tread too heavily
I snapped the bitter twigs
I lost my footing, bruised a branch
And now they scream again.
Anger, anger, anger
And my breath breaks up the frost.
Fire burns inside, so hot
Dangerous to touch.
I just want to lash out at someone
Instead, I bite my words.
They cut me back and slice my throat
But surely words can’t hurt?