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Unknown

I feel like I never said your name,

And

You only ever said mine. 

So long we wandered around together, and

How much time did I spend

Trying to… hide?
I was a monster in love with my reflection now I will say his name and love the taste of the inflection please help me stop this sad obsession make me someone by making me no one. 

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Uncertain

You challenge me

You ignite me with sparks, they travel my bones
The windy wayward valleys of my heart and soul

I grapple with my understanding of you

Frustration and fear, longing and love
I face destruction and growth, courage 
And chaos

Of this world where every pain haunts me
You are now my weakness

Redirect

I’ve fought a thousand battles trying to find you, searching for some infinite desire that would anchor me to another

I found nothing and no one

Only dust. 

Just shadows full of twinkling promise,
Remnants of love; so I kept looking
And I discovered strength instead of companionship. 

Dignity instead of desire. 

Joy
in place of longing. 
And I am free of binding chains; now I search languidly, with expectation

Instead

Of desperation.
 

Season

For a brief time,
The sunlight will graze my eyes

And my words will haze and thrive

And the colors will paint my pain

Roses and thorns and stains

The grating will give way to whispers
The blossom will silence the scream

i will reflect on the stars and on wonder
(do you love her?)

Until the aching returns to my dreams.