Do you ever think about me?
Do you wonder how I am?
Since you left, since you left
Do you fight off what reminds you of me
Cast it out and then
Pretend we never met?
I know I touched your heart, I know
I hit some vein
If you ever come this way
Will you let the light back in?
I don’t know all your darkness, I
Don’t know all your pain
I’m sure whatever trauma stalks you
Ripped you from this place
But if the stars speak softly to you
Of love and easy grace,
Remember all the words I sent you
Remember then my face.
I know I am in love
many reasons, one being
the people on the screen… with their perfect, flawlessly manicured romances
Do not hold a candle
To my own.
I feel no jealousy, no longing
no loneliness, no haunting
Just quizzical – are these the same stories
that left me heart-hungry so long before?
Now I see but a shadow
of the love we have to explore.
These Hollywood bouquets are nothing
to him and me.
i’m sorry, it’s so much easier
to live in the regret
i expect the darkness and the waiting hurts my head
i can walk on into shadow or I can cower in the light
i wish I knew how to leave the ledge but i know i cannot fly
I’m sorry, I’m
still more than enough for you
and you felt you were never
i’m sorry for the hauntings, for the presence, for the longings
i’m sorry that you can’t forget and
just want to be friends
we whisper to the nights when we
have any need to spill our dreams
the coinage drains, it coughs and stains
each numbing-thought deserved.
I don’t know why my soul is tired but my eyes crave seeing the world
yeah, it’s lows like dipping beneath the wings of submarines
as they brush the valleys of the sea
but the highs are so windy, so brightly sharp over the city
i will take the screaming-pain if
it means i sometimes feel this strongly.
i questioned all i found that night
and wondered away my worry-plight
i hesitate to feel the light
my starving heart desires.
how can i love the fire
if i hate its savage bite?