For a moment, my veins were on fire
Alight with Your power and might.
I had been swept by the threat of the Enemy’s wings;
His beauty, his torment, his plight
You will die, he whispered to me
Very soon, and painfully.
I know not what he expected, nor
What singing fear was rebuked.
But the threats did not sting
For my heritage brings
Courage; the heartiest thing.
I SNARLED “so be it then,
I’ll die as I lived,
Shouting praise to the King!”
For He does not bow to your suffering.
How can I serve you better, Lord, how can I earn your name
How can I be worthy of all the grace you pour on me?
You shake your head, you reach down to me
“I am everything you need.“
they kick me where i lie.
i drown in my own eyes.
I am good for nothing else
Riddled with agony, an aching mess
Of cuts and gaping wounds, trauma and
Just threaded together, barely, by the strings of your grace.
Nobody can know me as You do, so I burn to know you
When the tidal wave of nothingness climbs its way into my lungs
There is nobody to give me breath except for you, King
You are the only reason I still sing
Let your grace soothe me
Let its awesome, terrible power tear down my misconceptions
Knock down every walled-up presupposition
I do not want to live in a bubble of pain
For fear of it popping and the oxygen outside knowing my name
Take me somewhere my heart cries out for you
Fill me with your power, oh God, and your truth.
No! My spirit screams
Your lies will not affect me.
I know who I am and to whom I belong and my King is not yours in defeat.
His love cannot be overcome
because it’s extended to everyone
So goodbye fear and terror
and farewell to you, hate
You’ll starve as you watch me drink and feast beside the King of Grace.